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NASTY WOMEN
Walking through the airport a few days ago, I saw a pretty woman walking the other way trying to look as unattractive as she possibly could with a sloppy coat, her shoulders hunched against the world, a ball cap pulled low over her eyes. Perhaps she had no ulterior motive and I was just reading intentions into it, but a friend of mine mentioned that she wears her RBF (Resting Bitch Face) when in airports or restaurants where she does not want to be bothered by men.

YOU DON’T KNOW WHY, EITHER.
We often don’t know what we want in sex until we’ve tried it, and even then it may change. We need to stop judging ourselves for how that goes down, or we do, if that’s what we feel like at the time.  Don’t be too harsh, toward yourself or others.

WHERE DOES DESIRE GO?
One of my favorite writers, Tom robbins, once asked, “Where does love go?” That one is too complicated for me. So I’ll just ask, where does desire go? A long time ago (that’s relative, right?) I was told that “romantic love” or “passionate love” evolved to last about  18 months. Then it was to be replaced by something more lasting… READ MORE…

LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES
“I don’t want to be always ready to move on after six months,” Melanie cried one afternoon. Beautiful, high energy, and hurting, Melanie was trying to sort emotions after a recent break up that she had initiated. She was done with the man, who she had been slowly peeling out of her life for months anyway like removing shreds of skin after a bad sunburn. She didn’t really lament losing the man. She lamented losing one more chance. READ MORE…

“EXPOSED” NOT AVAILABLE — FOR NOW
We’re making some changes to Exposed by Jessica Love. Consequently, the book is no longer available for purchase. As of today, Amazon still lists the paperback for sale, but soon it will percolate through their system and the paperback will disappear as has the Kindle option. Used copies may still show up, I don’t know. Changes to the book will not be huge, and are caused primarily by a redirection in marketing. READ MORE…

SEX, LOVE AND INTIMACY
It’s hard to sift the emotions we have around sex. Sarah lives where many of the contradictions are obvious. “When you’re with your sugar daddy, doesn’t it feel ‘wrong’ to be so intimate? Doesn’t it feel odd, especially when you are in a relationship with someone else? Even in the polyamorous community, isn’t there jealousy?”  READ MORE…

MULTIPLE LOVERS
More of my friend Sarah: She has “intimate relationships that are not exclusive with respect to other sexual or intimate relationships.”
“I just don’t believe we were designed to be monogamous,” Sarah says. Her sugar daddy knows. So did her last boyfriend: He also was part of  “The Lifestyle” as it’s also known. READ MORE…

SEX, LOVE AND MONEY
My friend Sarah has a sugar daddy. I’ve met him. I like him, though he’s not my type. “Robert” helps Sarah out with a monthly allowance, and she gives him something he wants. Sex? Sure. But much more than that, too. Sarah respects Robert, and what he’s accomplished in life. She’s interested in how his world works, a world far different than the one in which she spends most of her days. She asks him about that and loves the stories he tells. There’s an age difference, but it doesn’t seem to bother either one of them. READ MORE…

BOOB ENVY
At the gym, I was lifting weights close to two women who were on adjacent treadmills talking about a friend of theirs who had just gotten a “boob job.”
“Why why why did she get one?” asked one. “They just sit on top of her chest like a pair of Texas grapefruit.”
“Because her husband is an asshole,” said the other. “She hopes it will  fix everything wrong in their relationship. She doesn’t need bigger boobs. She needs a bigger husband.” READ MORE…

COMFORT AND LOVE
It was evening, by the clock, but we were soaking up warmth from a sun that still hung far above the horizon. Summer in the northern latitudes can be like drinking honey from a wide-mouth jar. Billy sat on the rock wall next to me. “She was a remarkable person,” he said. “It’s really weird. Three dates. Spread out over months. Talking on the phone.” READ MORE

SCIENCE OF OUR INFIDELITY
What if promiscuity was the result of brain wiring? What if that wiring was the result of inherited genes that impact us in ways we can not possibly anticipate? What if what we want in a partner changes over time — not because anything happened but just because time had passed? What if infidelity isn’t “his fault” or “her fault” but caused by an invisible process outside of anyone’s control? READ MORE…

It had been too long since I’d connected with a friend important to me. When she slowed down enough for us to have coffee, she described how very hard it had become to manage difficult and demanding clients, a family that needed her, health issues, along with a patient and understanding partner who also wanted her to share moments with him and not always be preoccupied…  “I can’t do any more!” she said. “I just want to say $*@& IT!” READ MORE…

What if our sexual preferences begin to form in childhood? I don’t mean whether we are straight of gay or asexual or voracious or something in between or that encompasses it all or something completely different. I mean what we find attractive, but within our sexuality “type.” READ MORE…

MAY 4, 2015  I NEED YOUR HELP!
Something is happening with Exposed and it might be — just might be — pretty wonderful. Last week we dropped the price to 99¢ for the ebook. I didn’t know whether to make the change permanent… Nothing much happened. But then on Saturday, we got a serious uptick in the rankings. For two days, we were in the top one percent of the million or so ebooks on Amazon, and in the top 40 in our categories. READ MORE…

MAN OR WOMAN, GAY OR STRAIGHT?
There’s a story out there that ties into many themes in my writing, here and in my books. Bruce Jenner has declared, “For all intents and purposes, I am a woman.” As Mr. Jenner… he was once considered to be the top male athlete in the world. But he knew then, and had known since he was a child, that his “soul” was that of a woman. READ MORE…

YOUR CHARACTER IS “COLD”
Not for the first time, a potential reader said I was too “cold” in Exposed. She “couldn’t relate to the character.” This always surprises me. From the inside, I am anything but “cold.”  There is laughter, there are tears, there is fear. I am passionate about many things, including passion itself. So why this disconnect? My response is usually “Jessica’s not cold. She’s French.”  READ MORE…

DRUGS AND SEX
Can drugs make sex easier, or better? I get asked this question surprisingly often, despite the fact that I put my opinion out there pretty definitively in Exposed. It’s a short book. Those parts are easy to find. Easier? I suppose, for some. Better? I will say no, but maybe for reasons you don’t anticipate. READ MORE…

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
Tonight I’m going out with Billy, an old friend. We’ll have dinner, and I’ll give him a long-overdue birthday present, and maybe we’ll dance to some good music. And then we’ll probably spend the night together… We are not in love. READ MORE…

“DON’T OVER THINK IT”
I was in a jewelry store the other day, just browsing. An older, very handsome man was at the same counter, buying an anniversary gift for his wife of 40 years, he told the clerk. “Whats the secret?” I asked. “Don’t over think it,” was his quick reply. “There’s more,” I said. He paused and looked at me, to see if I was really interested in what he had to say. He didn’t mind sharing, but didn’t want to waste his time, either. READ MORE…

“I’LL BE THERE FOR YOU”
Who is right for us? What do we want from them? Why do some couples tackle life’s great challenges together, while others fly apart at a slight bump in the road? Why are some couples able to plan a future together, knowing that being with each other is the rock upon which their worlds are built, while others are together “if it works out,”on swirling waters that may or may not flow in the same direction? READ MORE…

DO WE WANT A SALES PITCH?
My favorite coffee shop (name redacted) in Seattle has incredibly comfortable chairs where I go occasionally to stare out at the water and gather my thoughts. The chairs are clustered a little too close together, so sometimes conversations are shared with strangers. Yesterday I overheard one I knew I wanted to write about, which is why this post is late. “What do you tell a woman? What do you say to sweep her off her feet?” Elaine asked.  READ MORE…

FREE BOOKS, A SNEAK PEEK
On Friday I completed a crucial chapter in the new book, Crosscurrents. It’s a bedroom scene. A friend said she had to leave the kitchen while reading it. I don’t know exactly what she meant, but I take that as a compliment. Crosscurrents will be released this year. I am committed to getting the first draft complete by the end of this month (March, 2015). I’d like to send you that chapter in rough form, before the editor gets to it. I’d also like to send you a FREE copy of Exposed in ebook … READ MORE…

DIFFERENCES THAT UNITE
Salt is a rare but important commodity for monarch butterflies. Those that eat milkweed along roads treated with salt appear to have an advantage over those that don’t. With more salt, males develop more thoracic muscle, enabling them to fly further in search of females. Females get bigger brains and eyes, allowing them to find better places to nest.* READ MORE…

TRAINING MY LOVER
Sam didn’t used to be a great lover, but, OMG, does he know how to touch me now. It didn’t take long, either. The other night we were talking in bed with him propped up on his elbows, when he scootched toward me and kissed me slowly on the lips. Just a soft, dry, kiss, firm enough that I knew he was serious but still gentle and calm. He waited for my tongue to start to explore the contours of his lips. At some point, his hand found the small of my back but but that arm was also locked between my legs… READ MORE…

Jackie has had many lovers, some of whom she stays in close touch with, sharing their lives in ways deep and profound. When her boyfriend Mike asked who she was always on the computer with, she bristled, and defended hours spent emailing Dave, a former lover. “Mike has no right to tell me who I should talk to, and what I talk about. I’m not having sex with Dave. He was an important part of my life long before I met Mike. That’s just how it is.” READ MORE…

OWNING OUR DESIRES
Sophia’s long, thick brown hair, olive skin and wide sensual mouth are set off by the most amazing light green eyes, and the effect is electric. With her tall, slim five-foot-eight frame, men and women are instantly attracted to her. We’ve been at breakfast when phone numbers were delivered to our table. What a burden. She never told me when she was first sexually abused… READ MORE…

WORKING OUT
Pixie works out at the same gym I do. I go in three days a week. I think she goes in every day. Each muscle of her body is defined, and I’d guess she has low-single-digit body fat. She works hard, she sweats; if she is there when I arrive, she is often there when I leave. She doesn’t compromise. “Is it a sacrifice?” I asked her once when we were both between sets. “It’s what I do, it’s who I am,” she replied. READ MORE…

Yesterday I wrote what I expect will be the last sentence of the book Crosscurrents. There is much left to do, But it’s very strange that this book evolved from an erotic novel into a thriller, or a mystery, and a love story. That was not what I intended at all! At the end of Exposed, I felt so self-contained. Doing what I wanted, going where I wanted, having my adventures when I wanted. I like sex and occasionally in an erotic setting with multiple partners. I didn’t need to justify myself, nor compromise, and certainly not apologize. READ MORE…

There’s an erotic scene in the new book set in a new club in Seattle. It’s not something you would see every day, even in those clubs where erotic play is common. It’s not violent, It’s not filthy. But it’s graphic, and the vulnerability is intense. I’ve been thinking about whether it’s too intense. READ MORE…

BAGGAGE IN THE BEDROOM  We all have sexual history. If not, you are reading the wrong writer. I don’t talk about past lovers with current lovers. It never turns out well. The insecure don’t believe they can ever compete, and those who want to compete with my past are completely absent from the present, which is where I need them to be. Billy is a cool guy; sweet, tall, blond and a great body. I would sleep with him, too, if I didn’t worry about screwing (!) up our friendship. Okay, yes, we have but we don’t now and … READ MORE…

  BLOG TOUR!
The publisher has set up a blog tour for “Exposed” this coming week. In addition, an ad will be appearing in Seattle’s “The Stranger,” an alternative newspaper (and model for similar publication in the book.) Here are dates of the tour. Stop by these sites and help us get some momentum! READ MORE…

Often we have some idea when big changes are coming. We get engaged, get divorced, change jobs, have a child, a sick relative dies. Other times, big changes creep up or just drop in on us. They seem so incidental when they begin that we don’t think much of them at the time, but later on, when we remember them, it all falls into place. “Jessica, there’s a Geoffry Quinn on line one. He says he needs to speak with you.” READ MORE…

ON WRITING
Writing is, among other things, a way for me to “externalize” my thinking. What I call my thinking is often a jumble of external stimuli, internal struggles, how much chocolate I had before bed (always a bad idea!) and so on. Meditation helps me sort these things out. So does writing. READ MORE…

CHRISTMAS
Today I realized I’m really enjoying Christmas, and it happened quite by accident. Something still wasn’t right with my car after I picked it up from Mike the Mechanic yesterday. A light was on related to the work done. I’d left the office early today, done my shopping and had the time, so I went back. Mike the Mechanic came out and quickly did an adjustment and the light blinked out. READ MORE…

LUNCH
(from the novel “Crosscurrents by Jessica Love”, © 2014, due out in June, 2015) (Here’s what I think will be Chapter One of the book I’m working on now. It’s rough, it’s a draft, and it may or may not make it into the final version. But I put it out there to show you (and my publisher) that I am working. I’d welcome your feedback. Thank you, ~Jessica) READ MORE…

SPARROW
At a friend’s place in the high desert east of the Cascade Mountains that divide the states of Washington and Oregon into wet-side and dry-side, a sage sparrow was perched on the back of a chair on his deck. It talked and talked to its image in the window. READ MORE…

MASTURBATION
Yesterday Emily and I wandered into a local “toy store.” Emily is a really good friend, and a little shy, which is one reason I went along. Another is that it’s just fun! The salesperson was really good, and took time to describe attributes of the various pleasure devices. READ MORE…

WE ALL WANT CONNECTION
Genevieve called the other day. “I’ve done something stupid,” she said. “I’m hurting.” Genevieve is one of the wisest, smartest, and most courageous women I know. If she’s in pain, it’s real. “I got involved with a married man.” READ MORE…

WILL YOU POST A REVIEW?
As of 9 a.m. Seattle time on October 21, “Exposed” was ranked #1 in the Erotic Suspense category of books available through free promotion, 24th in the larger Erotic category, and 852 out of all books available for free under promotion. To keep this going, we need more reviews. If you haven’t downloaded “Exposed,” the eBook is free on Amazon, here. If you enjoy the book, please take a minute and post a review. Every single one of them helps. READ MORE…

“EXPOSED” FREE ON KINDLE FOR THREE DAYS
For those of you with a Kindle, or who have the Kindle app on your computer, the publisher of Exposed is giving away electronic copies for another three days. Get it here. READ MORE…

OCTOBER 15, 2014 EXPOSED IS LAUNCHED!
Exposed went on sale today. And we have a stellar review already on the board! Thank you, Rozeteee, whoever and wherever you are. If you send me your address via the web site, I’ll send you a signed copy of the book. I can’t go through Goodreads for contractual and ethical reasons. The same goes for the first 20 readers who buy (here) the Kindle book and post a review on Amazon.  I will purchase a paperback, (yes, I get a deal, but they cost me more than the Kindle editions costs you!) I’ll sign and send it to you with a note of thanks. READ MORE…

FOUR DAYS TO LAUNCH
Exposed will be released in four days, and I’m asking everyone I know for a little help. I’m willing to give something in exchange (“Where’s my self-interest?” frequently asks one of my characters). I would like to give a free copy of the book to those willing to write an honest review and post it on Amazon in the first five days after the book is available. Exposed is not a long book, and several “prereaders” have finished it in a day. READ MORE…

THE FEAR FACTOR
Men are a necessary evil, some women say. I disagree. They aren’t necessarily evil. They aren’t necessary at all. But I happen to like them. Several women have come to me in the last several months, hoping I will do bad things to their (former) spouse. Usually, the bad things they want done involve the court room. Other times, I cut the conversation short. READ MORE…

AM I HAPPY?
A reader wondered if I am “really happy.” Hmmm. My first response was, “of course. Why wouldn’t I be?” But that’s too shallow. Their question is about something else, perhaps, and my answer should be more thoughtful. READ MORE…

PRAISE
When I was in high school and living with my French grandmother, I did well at a track meet. She wasn’t there (I don’t blame her. Where is “there” at a track meet?”) But when I got home and showed her the results, she looked, nodded, said “You are happy? Good.” And she went back to cooking dinner. READ MORE…

WHAT’S MORAL?
One of you asked me, “doesn’t it bother you to be immoral?” I took a moment. In “Exposed” you will read about channeling outrage. Because fire is controlled does not mean it’s safe. Beware. “Immoral.” There was a great film about morality, of course it was French, where a woman confessed to being of “dubious morals.” When asked to define, she said, “I am dubious of the morals of others.” READ MORE…

BOUNDARIES
Elaine is a friend of mine who finds it nearly impossible to say “no.” For reasons I can’t understand, she feels that if men want her, she has to respond in some way. READ MORE…

 

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